I wear my blood like jewelry I wear it nice and loud I wear my eyes like makeup I wear them to astound I never liked the silence it always made me cringe and lately every sunset takes on a darker tinge I wear my ice like banquets I live in luxury I have this world inside and I want to set it free so if you never knew me now you know a little bit and if I do not impress you maybe I'll impress who you are with I've been dancing like an angel with an artificial hip you know words they have some meaning but sounds are more equipped to tell the truth cut right to the core you either end up standing or lying on the floor I wish that you'd be honest I wish that you'd be kind I wish I wished for nothing that would be just fine but the past is angry yeah the past is sick and my brain is tired of going back to it so if you never knew me now you know a little bit and if I do not impress you maybe I'll impress who you are with I've been dancing like an angel with an artificial hip you know words they have some meaning but sounds are more equipped to tell the truth cut right to the core you either end up standing or lying on the floor so if you never knew me now you know a little bit and if I do not impress you maybe I'll impress who you are with I've been dancing like an angel with an artificial hip you know words they have some meaning but sounds are more equipped to tell the truth

Lyrics: It's been 8 years since I let it go 10 more since I've been in control and I've got to admit it's driving me batshit If I'm whole why don't I feel whole? And if I'm runnin' why are my legs cold? And if you really love me why am I acting crazy? Nobody's sane we just pretend I know I picked a fight again I'm insecure and neurotic I thought you found me exotic You let me sweat while I wait for a call or text or an e-mail I run around inside my head what is there to do instead? And it's times like these I get some perspective cuz it's times like these I get real reflective If I'm whole why don't I feel whole? And if I'm runnin' why are my feet cold? And if you really love me why am I acting crazy? Nobody's sane we just pretend I thought you'd love me till the end I know I'm unrealistic immature and a little sadistic I'm trying just as hard as you babe I crave the same things that you crave I know I fucked it up again what will it take for me to win? And it's times like these I get real down and it's times like these I wish I had my mom around If I'm whole why don't I feel whole? And if I'm runnin' why are my legs cold? And if you really love me why am I acting crazy? Nobody's sane we just pretend I thought you'd love me till the end I know I'm unrealistic immature and a little sadistic I'm trying just as hard as you babe I crave the same things that you crave I know I picked a fight again what will it take for this to end? And it's times like these I get some perspective cuz it's times like these I get real reflective If I'm whole why don't I feel whole? And if I'm runnin' why are my feet cold? And if you really love me why am I acting crazy?

sometimes I think about you until the whole world goes quiet it's like a bad habit smokin' cigarettes or startin' fires and I know it's so sad but that's the way it is it's not fair not honest but true love was never ever promised say what doesn't kill me makes me stronger so I must be made of spider silk and diamonds. Hey! Sometimes I think about people in the context of a library book something I check out, read and return before it's overdue and it makes me so sad but that's the way it is it's not fair not honest but true friendship was never promised say what doesn't kill me makes me stronger so I must be made of gold plated armor must be made of purely armor. They say what doesn't kill me makes me stronger so stay with me baby just a little longer cuz you and me together is as close as it gets to dyin' so if I survive I'm as strong as King Titan. Sometimes I think about you until the whole world goes quiet I think about where you been, what you do and if you ever sit in silence and I know it's so sad but that's the way it is it's not fair not honest but true sanity was never promised say what doesn't kill me makes me stronger so I must be made of spider silk and diamonds. and they say what doesn't kill me makes me stronger so stay with me baby just a little longer cuz you and me together is as close as it gets to dyin' so if I survive I'm as strong as... you and me make a pretty good team in my head but I'm afraid I've misinterpreted every word you've ever said and now I'm feeling mistreated, abused angry, sad and a little confused but it's ok it's alright cuz I'm stronger than dynamite so give me all you got I'll make it through another night.

They don’t know my name it is such a shame they don’t know know my name don’t know who to blame it is such a shame wanting to have fame don’t know who to blame they don’t know my name I won’t dry my eyes if I want to cry I’m so tired of wal -king careful in your eyes I will not be quiet if I want to scream I’m a lot and not enough somewhere in between it’s ok to be confused arbitrary and obtuse full of shame and unaware it is ok not to care I accept that I am foolish I am accept that I am scared life can be an ice cream cake or a hungry grizzly bear I am so ashamed always take the blame tired of reporting to an ever-growing flame of nonsense and regret thought that I was present and if I blame myself where do I go for help? It’s ok to be confused arbitrary and obtuse full of shame and unaware it is ok not to care I accept that I am foolish I am accept that I am scared life can be an ice cream cake or a hungry grizzly bear or a hundred grizzly bears or some never-ending stairs I’m so tired I don’t care it’s ok to be confused arbitrary and obtuse full of shame and unaware it is ok not to care I accept that I am foolish I am accept that I am scared life can be an ice cream cake or a hungry grizzly bear They don’t know my name it is such a shame they don’t know know my name don’t know who to blame it is such a shame wanting to have fame don’t know who to blame they don’t know my name I won’t dry my eyes if I want to cry I’m so tired of wal -king careful in your eyes I will not be quiet if I want to scream I’m a lot and not enough somewhere in between it’s ok to be confused arbitrary and obtuse full of shame and unaware it is ok not to care I accept that I am foolish I am accept that I am scared life can be an ice cream cake or a hungry grizzly bear I am so ashamed always take the blame tired of reporting to an ever-growing flame of nonsense and regret thought that I was present and if I blame myself where do I go for help? It’s ok to be confused arbitrary and obtuse full of shame and unaware it is ok not to care I accept that I am foolish I am accept that I am scared life can be an ice cream cake or a hungry grizzly bear or a hundred grizzly bears or some never-ending stairs I’m so tired I don’t care it’s ok to be confused arbitrary and obtuse full of shame and unaware it is ok not to care I accept that I am foolish I am accept that I am scared life can be an ice cream cake or a hungry grizzly bear

I put my patience in the past pray to god this feeling lasts turn excitement into art light a fire just to start something new and something warm keep me cozy in the storm that rages around my heart sick of sad songs and the dark I'm sick of missing my ex-boyfriend feeling guilty over nothing getting drunk and getting sober can this war for one be over? guess I have some expectations guess I kinda can't accept the way I am and I don't know where I'm going where I've been is ancient news it's like living in constant mix of fear and attitude I like retro breakfast joints just to get across my point my eyes flicker like a screen I do not say what I mean I don't like to sit cross legged Don't like new york, don't like vegas attract people who can't love me I'm afraid of intimacy guess I have some expectations guess I kinda can't accept the way I am and I don't know where I'm going where I've been is ancient news it's like living in constant mix of fear and attitude I dream of space and little martians dream of getting lost in target then I wake up and I forget everything Sick of sad songs, sick of sadness homesick with a certain gladness missing mom annoyed at dad yes this is life below the madness guess I have some expectations guess I kinda can't accept the way I am and I don't know where I'm going where I've been is ancient news it's like living in constant mix of fear and attitude I'm sick of missing my ex-boyfriend feeling guilty over nothing getting drunk and getting sober can this war for one be over? guess I have some expectations guess I kinda can't accept the way I am

baby take a step back let's reprogram to a slow jam take a look through my record stack I am thinking of this one track cuz I really need to relax think that I'm lost in these plans I don't know my motive don't know why I'm so upset. Dancing in the kitchen as the warm light filters in and I catch my reflection full of love and affection but there's still so much tension and things I cannot mention why do I always get dragged down? Is this real, do I need this now? Baby take a step back let's reprogram to a slow jam take a look through my record stack I am thinking of this one track cuz I really need to relax think that I'm lost in these plans I don't know my motive but I am motivated to be different somehow lighter somewhat brighter shine a little longer be a little closer to something that is holy or something I can hold onto I don't want to be this far away again I don't want to take for granted anything. Can we just put on a slow jam and suspend the rest of our plans? I'm so content in this moment I am swaying I am floating and I won't be dragged back down no no no no no not now I don't know my motive but I am motivated to be different somehow lighter somewhat brighter shine a little longer be a little closer to something that is holy or something I can hold onto I don't want to be this far away again I don't want to take for granted anything. And when the quiet comes again as it does though it's never really quiet, huh? I will savor the moment something so golden it's slow so I'm slowing picture me glowing like a flower in the rain.